Today is the 8th January 2008 . Thought i could upload some photos but realized i'm getting frustrated over organizing it . So i'll just go without photos . Zzz . 

Found that i haven't been really blogging, it's all about hi and bye these days . Maybe i'm getting a little too busy . 

Working and studying, hardly have a chance to rest well and enough . CA2 is commencing next week and i think i should stop work for a while, i wonder if the manager would allow . I mean if he don't allow then too bad, my study comes first yeah . Anyway, this new job i working for, is bad man . Seriously on a situation whereby they're short of service crew till there's no one to guide me along when busy times are there . People there are more concern about there own responsibilities and yours . When times are busy, and i got stuck with questions about what do i do, call = no call, ask = no answers, problem = think about the solutions yourself and if you're in luck someone may help you . And that's how i left customers waiting for someone so long . Maybe things are not yet stable since it's a new restaurant, but more than 5 chef working in the kitchen yet customers still have to wait for a whole 30mins with nothing but drinks on their table . A little too unreasonable aye ? SABA has around 5-6 cooks at one time, customers seating area is much more bigger, but they could produce food fast . Makes no sense to me at all . But ah, that's not my problem anymore, all in all, i wouldn't recommend friends or people to eat at Double Bay like how i used to at SABA . SABA has nice food, nice WWO, nice breaded mushrooms, and reasonable to wait a bit longer for the food, i have many customers telling me about nice food at SABA . Double Bay, is different, maybe people here are more classy or whatever, but so far i haven't got any one, not one telling me that the food was nice . It's all about answering 'it's ok', 'it's fine' and worse, i've got one customer telling me when i asked how the fish and chip was, he answered 'just fish and chip lor' . Pricing wise, reasonable for the fish and chip, but the rest is over priced for big plates and small chunk of food splat in the middle . Drinks . . . SABA has unlimited soft drinks refillable for S$5.50, Double Bay has it one time drink for S$4.90 . Which one would you go for ? Of course, for economical people like me and most of us, i think SABA would be better . I don't know, suddenly i felt it's better working back at SABA, but i wouldn't, unless for Peter . Otherwise, it's more like working my career at Double Bay now, no freedom, no this, no that, must do this, remember that . And the head chef got angry at me that day i worked as a runner or what we called expo at SABA, i sent the food to the right table, but just because i said CHICKEN pie instead of sandwich, another guy said it's his and ate it all when it's supposed to be another guest's . What's he supposed to have ? Beef pie . So i said chicken twice in his face for nothing because he only listens out for pie . Whatever . I mean, you could blamed it on me for sending to the wrong person, but doesn't he have brains to realize he's supposed to have beef instead of chicken . He even finished the entire sandwich . 

Despite having this new job, i'm still looking for other jobs . So if i found one, it's goodbye to Double Bay . Not happy working there at all since the first day i started and there's this pressure on me for perfectness - no mistakes . I'm not attached to any senior for guidance ever since first day working, chances of making mistakes = 80% . 

All in all, i think the head chef shouldn't be unhappy about this issue and question my manager as if it's his mistake . I did it wrongly, not him, so don't let it out on the wrong person, even if you do, apologize . 

Dear dear, i feel like smoking these days . You know what i mean ? Bad cravings . 

Today is the 4th January 2008 . Even though i've slept for almost twelve hours, i still feel tired . Work started on new year's day, my shift starts 5pm till 2am . School for the next day till 5pm and wentta work at 6pm to 2am . So was last night . Dear dear is also kind and loving to me, waiting for me to knock off at 2am to fetch me home everyday . Oh yes, and made sure that i had dinner too . 

So today i had my day off while dear dear is at work on duty, just so it's too bad because i thought my day off today i could accompany dear dear . But ah, it's work, so i'll be home doing tutorials and revising for re-test this week .  

Sigh, been rather busy these few days, i felt my life all mixed up studying in poly . Start of the year, but end of the term, should i feel afresh for the new year or feel ready for things to end for year 2 ? Neither of both ? ? I don't know man . 

Right, will blog more again soon, gotta rush tutorials . Ciao . 

Today is the 31st December 2008 . It's officially the last day of year 2008 . Er jie is off to Marina Bay for the count down . My dear man friend is at his friend's house for Mahjong, but i'm fine with it . =) . Since he already agreed to play Mahjong with them, i don't want him to cancel things out last minute just because of me . Although . . . i'm really feeling lonely . . . moody and wanna club tonight . 

Wilson asked me out again, not mentioning that he already failed serveral times . But, i can't, because i know that my sweet heart would be unhappy . Never mind about that . I was so in the mood for the new year this morning, but then i told myself it's gonna be nothing, so i felt as if it's any other normal day . Now, at this time, 11.10pm, sms-es are all coming in, wishing me good for the coming year, makes me wanna party too . =/ . 

Wentta have my hair trimmed this afternoon instead of highlighting it white . Shirley was right, attachment is gonna be up soon, if i highlight my hair white, i'll have to/must make it black again soon . So just trimming and gonna buy boxes and dye on my own again then .

Well, i'm gonna tune in to Lush99.5fm now and have some XO . Guys and girls, ladies and gentlemen, have a good and happy new year . Best of the best wishes to everyone . 

And to you . . . i don't hate you for what you did . In fact, i expected it . I know how it is to be felt when you don't have what everyone else is having . I've been through this remember ? Remember how i was slapped across the face by Er jie for wanting to buy the phone from Zhen ? To me, having a phone is like wearing spectacles . When i first reported for short-sighted, i wanted to wear a spectacle so much . And i got it, but after long, i found out that i couldn't get rid of it, even if i really hate it . I'm so fine with going phone-less now, it's people around me that can't bear the consequences of me not having a cellphone . Like i said, i didn't meant that i want you outta this house, but please please take into consideration the cost of everything now . You're my sister, blood sister, the sister i'm closiest to, the sister that when we were young, would not sleep in the night, but continue playing games in the dark, whispered secrets and cried together . I don't wanna tell you certain things now because i felt that it doesn't make sense to you now because you're still young . All i know is, mom and dad really shouldn't be called assholes, old man or whatever other things you might think of . You can be angry, but know your limits with the temper releasing . Everyone make mistakes, so do you and me, for those mistakes that can't be tolerated, don't let it happen for more than three times . Once, twice, thrice, what comes next for most of the people ? Answer is give up . You're always throwing temper, until people got sick of it, so even if you're on the verge of breaking down, people wouldn't take it seriously because they're numb to your temper . I'm not afraid to say, i used to be like you, thinking that no one understands me . Yes, no one understands you, only you yourself understands you, no one else . No one would know what you wanna do next, no one would know why are you doing certain things, because it's you and not them . All i'm trying to say is, look on the bright side, i want my driving license as much as you want your handphone, but we'll just have to bear with it and be positive . If it's meant to be, forgive and forget . =)

Today is the 30th December 2008 . 

So you admit, you got fed up over one bloody phone . See ? Frankly for a bloody phone you wanna use capital letters and bold them . You're just so short-tempered .

Fine . 

I shall not say on . 

It's gonna be 31st December tomorrow, what are your plans ? Count down party ? =) It's a half day in school too . I wouldn't make any new year resolution for the coming year . I knew i wouldn't stick to it for long anyway . 

Went for an interview just now at Double Bay over at Raffles City . All i have to do is to wait for the call, which is likely possible . =) This means i'll have to forgo Khng's job offer at Goldlion . Apologies girl . 

I'll just have to work blindly for the rest of my life . 

Today is the 29th December 2008 . 

Honest, i can't remember what he did to you when you were 10 years old . All along i dote you more than Junjun because i felt he had enough doting from the rest, i gave priority to you more than anyone else . You wanna use my laptop, i allow you to, you didn't even ask for my permission, but i didn't scold you at all . He is your own father, and there you are, telling me he won't listen to you . Yes, i agree . But it just clearly shows how far a distance is spreaded across you and dad . Living under the roof with him for more than 10 years, don't you know it's dad's character to be that way ? He's the type, where he won't listen much, all he wants is to see things work . By all means, if you wanna report him to the police, go ahead . You said you were kind enough not to report him to the police huh ? Go ... i wanna see you report him to the police . Don't have to be kind when you hate your own dad that much . Menstrual cramp ... it's just an excuse, i have cramps too, and i know the pain it bearable . 

There are some ''things'' that you don't know about . It's not worth mentioning because it brings tears . Mom and dad brought us to this world, sweat and cried for us . Now that they're no longer young, shouldn't we as their child make them happier ? If you really hate dad so much, i suppose you want him dead ? Jailed ? Hanged ? 

I really wonder if you would cry at his funeral . 

It's not that i don't understand you, it's you who made people so sick and tired until they gave up hope trying to understand you . Dad is the one who build up this family, if you really hate him so much, don't make a fuss . It's you who hate him, so you ... leave this home . 

I tear as i wrote this post, not that i want you to leave this home . I really feel unfair for you to say that to dad . All these while, when we have problems, we always go to mom ... how many times did we go to dad ? He's always working hard to earn money, but in the end, always sitting alone in the living room when mom is away working . 

I don't wanna say on anymore . As for you, all i can say is, don't make me think that i dote on the wrong one . 

Today is the 19th December 2008 . Time flies, and it really does . My sister was right, you could feel that each and everyday is going by so slowly, but at the end of the day you thought it was so fast that say, a year just passed .



Financial crisis . . . so i guess there's no Christmas exchange this year then . Shirley's over at Sydney too, so that's one more reason to push away gift exchange . Not that i loathe gift exchanges, but sometimes, or most of the time, you really have to idea what to get for the other party, and most of what you received are not what you really need or wanted . Trash it or dust it ? Neither of both, so no gift is the best . But, there's always ALWAYS a but, that doesn't mean celebrating Christmas is called off because Christmas is not all about gift exchange . =) . Party is another way, i was invited to a party on Christmas Day, so hopefully i wouldn't get too bored over there .



Although that was a party, i gotta work the very next day, so no heavy drinking . =/ . Anyway, something to cheer up about, Koh Jin is back from Australia studying and would be staying in Singapore . So we're having clubbing just tomorrow . Come to think of it, i haven't club for almost two months . That's so long . Speaking of which, i bought the top online, bare back piece, paid and the online blog shop owner said the post man lost is along the way . Man, i waited for so long and still didn't get it . Just my luck . So then my sis and me went Bugis for a little shoe shopping yesterday, and i bought Dear dear's Christmas gift, a super high 4" platform shoe which made me around 1.75cm tall when i wear it, and a scandal to replace my old one . Nice ? Just a bit . Because i've got bad news .

Dad's jobless . Contract ended and the company did not wanna sign another contract . Boom . Big trouble . Gonna be more saved up, no more spendings too much . Poof, license flew away . Poof, back to square one . Should i be happy, it wouldn't last for long . Not until Dad found a new job, a real happy job to work at .

We walked by the stretch of East Coast Park, hands held together. I let go of your hand and stopped by to watch the stars, you stopped walking, looked back at me, walked closer, hold my hand and we walked again .

Today is the 16th December 2008 . Happy birthday to you, En . =)

Though that's the case, i've absolutely no idea what i'm unhappy about . I felt anger ( not that much though ), i felt disappointment, and i felt saddness . I wanna club so much, i wanna be alone so much . How i wish i could be in a room all by myself, locked up the door, and have the most powerful speakers turned on it could vibrate the walls and crack it . 

What is this ? No, not mood swing, i'm not even having period . 

Surely my speakers ain't enough, and lucky my dad ain't at home, else i couldn't even turn on a bit louder . 

Why am i angry ? Nothing's happen . . . or is it someone said something that made me angry but i didn't realized i was angry ? 

Shirley reached Sydney already, called to her dad while i was working, so i got to talk to her too ( coz i'm working at her parents' shop and her dad didn't join them ) . She was so happy . Well, you deserve it girl . Enjoy ok . 

Meanwhile, i really have to think of some way to cool down . 

Today is the 14th December 2008 . I can't help but to feel so lethargic these few days . 

Can't bring myself to do anything . It's only music that's bothering me . Can you live without music ? I can't . . . a life without music is more monotonous than ever . 

Suddenly, i felt life couldn't be better, it's always the same . You've got everything here, and life is only constantly ''interesting'' when you try out each and everything turn by turn . Because there's simply too much to be tried out, that's why people conclude that live is interesting . Well, that's what i thought . 

Thinking back, i wonder if i ever will go back to my dark side of life . Those days . . . i felt as if even if dying is nothing, all i ever wanted is carefree . How much would you pay to be carefree? To what extent would you go to be carefree ? I would go all out if i wanted to, almost did, but something pulled me back to life . Nevertheless, i'm still craving to be carefree . 

Place a rose each on my chair, my bag, my everything and make it lead the way to my one last thing, my man . . . you . How romantic is that . =)

Today is the 10th December 2008 . 

Going back working at Black Angus yesterday was a mistake . If he wants me to pay for the bill, fine . I WILL PAY . 

So next time if you need any help, please don't call me . Even if you're so short of manpower i wouldn't help . Since i offer my help, and there's not even a word of thanks, in the end still gotta pay for customer's bill and get your unhappy stuffs, i will not help anymore . It's not about the money . . . mind you Eddy, it's about manners . You know it keeps me wondering and asking around why you're a vegeterian because of Guan Yin, and you're always scolding vulgarities . Not only does it keeps me wondering and asking, i tell people too, so you get more popularity . Ah . . . next time you shall be known as the ''holy'' man that scolds vulgarities . 

You can have emotion(s) when you kill . Hence, no emotion means no mistake .

Today is the 8th December 2008 . Yeah, second article that can't stop me from writing before i turn in . 

AND THIS SHALL GOES TO MR. GEORGE TEO . 

Listen, i know we're so much younger than you but that doesn't gives you the every right to command and push orders around . Listen, we're all of ages old enough TO THINK, i believe you do have too ( or maybe your brain is smaller than a bird ) . Listen, if you ever wanna retreat, make the FUCKING SURE YOU MADE IT CLEAR IT'S YOUR FUCKING IDEA . 

L-i-s-t-e-n, listen up . My dear friend Shirley is innocent, and she has nothing to do with your fucking retreat idea . Bustard you did not even discuss this with her and now you're pushing it all to her ? Idiot you came up with this retreat idea and with only one email you want her to handle everything with your single email ? Yeah, for her benefit, yeah, for her to check out all department progression, but do you have any fucking idea to discuss with her before hand ? No . So you suppose one identical email sent out to all of us is a way to tell my one and only dear shirley that the purpose of this retreat means something else to her as an editor in chief ? So next time i should sent one identical email to everyone and you shall read the mail for what's in between the lines yeah . Oh please ! Is it so difficult to tell her that the retreat is a chance for her to make things right ? Is it so hell difficult to send another email ? Is it so ? It's either that by any chance you have typing problems or speaking problems when you sent out the email, that's why . . . i see . Hmm . 

Make it clear, you fucking son of a bitch . THIS IS A STUDENT THING, lecturers . . tutors or whatsoever kick ass shit DOES NOT INTERRUPT TOO MUCH, get it ? To tell you and make you enlighten about this thing, this is after all . . . second to our academic, that means our studies comes FIRST, and that includes GEMS . If you wanna know why it includes GEMS, go ahead to the principal's office and ask him . If not, please know that GEMS do play a part in our GPA and this fucking year book does not even contribute one single fart . So what if shirley is editor in chief for year book ? If you're alert enough, if you have eyes, if you know who did what, you would know she did more than she's supposed to do, more over she's in one of the top courses, mind you . No one is born a genius, everyone has to learn, and that includes you, idiot . 

And may i have the honor of questioning you, MY DEAR . What is the fucking purpose of ice breaking games on the day of retreat ? Does it makes our progess hell lot faster ? Oh, so you suppose after we play those stupid ass hole games knowing each other's name we could finish up our work in less than a minute huh ? Or does your tiniest brain suggest to you that that's actually . . . the most irritating idiotic fucking hell dumb ass bustard son of a bitch way to waste time when, we HAVE unfinished work to rush ? Think about it, dumb ass . 

I don't care if you read this, i don't care if this do no good to my future testimonial(s) . All i know is, you are doing something wrong, you made my friend unhappy . Go on, say you're disappointed in shirley, say it . Boo, cry all you want . Be emotional . . . want some sad songs from my playlist ? I'll play it slow for ya . Don't worry, please continue acting . Hello, do you know shirley well enough to be disappointed ? You don't teach her, neither do you go along with her very often ? Just wondering . . . do you attend a funeral you just happen to walk by and cry sadly as if that's some one you're close to ? Maybe you do . 

I'm still gonna club on Wednesday, which means i'll be blur on Thursday and not care what the fucking hell you're gonna say . 

Did you even think of how shirley will react upon receiving that mail you received ? Stand in her shoes, how would you feel if you were her receiving the mail ? Do you know you just spoilt someone else's mood ? Never thought about it, did you ? Because you're just such a big ass jerk, mother fucker son of a bitch bustard . 

Today is the 8th December 2008 . 

Guess i no longer qualify for the ducktours interview ever since i postponed the 2nd interview . No more calls from them . Just my luck . 

Anyway, headaches for five days and it's still persisting . I wonder what's happening . . . Wish i could just knock my head off and go walking around headlessly so i wouldn't get headaches anymore . 

Think i'll just take my medicine and rest . Nights . 

Today is the 5th December 2008 . Yeah, MST's over . It's time to work . It's time to buy the things i wanna buy, time to do the things i wanna do . After test today, i waited from 11am to 1pm for the talk on Dubai Attachment, but in the end, i forgot where's the venue, so i wasted 2 hours waiting with my sister in school . So, no talk, we head towards Bugis for lunch at Fish & Co., it's been a long time since the two of us went out together, so even if i'm left with my last $50, i wouldn't hesitate to use it on this time out together . Had lunch, we went for a little walk, and took neoprints . =)) . We used to have so much fun taking neoprints, so was today . Haha . Here are the pictures . 

Walked for a little more and i decided to head home, my headache and nauseaness is making me feel bad . Came home, i took a nap, woke up, and my headache is still there . Grr . 

Anyway, clubbing next Wednesday with Shirley girlfriend . Makes me think of the new place that replaced MOS . . . it's call ZIRCA . Received a mail from them, Wednesday free entry and free flow of lychee Martinis from 9.30pm till midnight i think . Isn't that cool ? Free flow martinis, oh my . 

But something strange over here, i don't feel the happiness about the holidays. Maybe because i didn't do well for my tests, but ah, that's a history. Let's not talk about what's unchangable . 

Found some photos in my phone and thought i should blog about them if not what's the point of taking down their pictures ? 

Since when did cancer causing instant noodles became a healtier choice ? ? ! ! Could someone please tell me which part of the instant noodles is healthy ? =/

Wentta Full Throttle that day and i saw the two little kids . I was seriously thinking about cutting their hairstyle . Isn't that cool ? 

Was in dear dear's room the other day and his bed handle got loose so he brought out some tools to fix it . I thought this set of allen keys could come in useful during my 'O' level project . 

So then he dug out more and more things to recall . And so he dug out his 'N' level art project . . . 

And his 'O' level art project . . . which one do you think is better ? I thought the 'N' level one was better . =) . 

And his report book remark says : 

Haha . Naughty boy ! Never bring books to school eh ?

Wentta dear dear's cousin's wedding last weekend . Before the dinner started, i visited the ladies and met two Japanese girls . Haha, maybe they had too advanced technology over at Japan, so they didn't know how to get the soap outta that metal box and i told them how . Haha, and they thought i was a korean and said an-nyeong-ha-sae-yo to me . And so we took photos together . =)

Guess i wouldn't be blogging often for the next three weeks, be working and working . I want my Apple MacBook Air . 

Today is the 4th December 2008 . MST's not over yet, i'm left with one last one tomorrow . So far i've no guarantee that i'll pass any one . That bad huh . . . Yeah, that bad . Auditing . . . nothing gets into my brain that night i did my revision . Finance . . . i memorized all those theory and i thought i could do those maths, but it turned out that i couldn't solve those stuffs which occupied almost half of all questions . Taxation today . Sometimes i really wonder if i have eyesight problem . It was stated clearly . Lectures 1 to 6, tutorials 1 to 4 . How could i even thought it was lectures 1 to 4 . Yeah, so yippee, i missed out two revision . In the end, i rely on my tutorial knowledge to answer those questions, and what should be a yes i wrote it a no . Great huh . And i slept at 4am this morning trying to re-do those tutorials . 

I really thought i wasted my time on tutorials . 

Today is the 1st December 2008 . How could i forget . . . it's God-dad's birthday today . By any slim chance that you're reading this very post . Happy birthday to you . =)

Did my revision last night till early 1am this morning, i turned in and awoke at 6.28am to continue with my work . Went through notes, rewrote the works to re-enforce what is to be remembered, re-read tutorials again and again . I confessed, i only started revision last night . . . but i did those tutorials, didn't i ? I attended lessons and even asked for help . If i had known that the same old thing would happen yet again, feeling as hopeless as if i skipped lectures and left tutorials undone, i would have turn in early last night . Went home alone, didn't wish to join Nathan and Sharon, no more of those answers discussion, at least, not anywhere near me . I felt as if i should not have done those tutorials, as if my time is wasted doing those tutorials . 

For some might conclude that i deserve this consequence . I did nothing over the weekend, no extra revision and that i still am so laid back at times . Last minute revision means so dead in their eyes . No matter what i'm to become in near future, technician, waitress or perhaps accounts assistant, i have my teenage life to recall and smile about . Have you got interesting stories to talk about that happened recently . . . the past month . . . or the past one year ? If i have to sit down and recall, i could spend nights talking about my teenage life . Never would i wish to be speechless when my children ask me about my teenage life . We would sit down on the bed, hugging soft pillows, talking about interesting stories and laughing the night away till we're tired and go to sleep with a smile on our faces . I never regret about not studying enough . My principle of life : live life to the fullest, make no regrets .  

I never regret giving us a chance .

''Dear dear, it has been 5mths since we started. It had also been a long time since i last had a relationship that lasted so long. I just wanna let you know that i'm really very happy to have u as my gf n i'm really hoping that our relationship will last forever... Tks for the changes which u had done for me to keep our relationship going. I'll also try my best to keep u as happy as possible. Dear dear, I LOVE YOU.'' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:15, From : Terence Ong

''Siao ar. Go and sleep.'' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:16, To : Terence Ong

''Wah liew... I type so long, u say me siao.. =('' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:17, From : Terence Ong

''Haha. Ok la. Just disturbing you. I'm also very happy we're happy tgt. We're happy couple. Happy happy happy. Lol.'' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:18, To : Terence Ong

''Cho dear dear.. Gd nite... U slp early...'' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:20, From : Terence Ong

 

''Haha. Good night, my dear dear. I LOVE YOU TOO. =)'' 1 Dec. 2008, 00:20, To : Terence Ong

 

Let this post remain on, for i do not have to ability to remember it for long, oh you know me, always am so . . . My memories could forget me about this, but my diary wouldn't . 

She said what i thought i already agreed twelve months back : 

''don't rob me

of my will to live''

Today is the last day of November - 30th November 2008 . The moment of our fifth month awaits us . I am surprised indeed, that i could be tamed down after what happened to my life . I never expect that i could enter any relationships to last for more than a month in sincerity . You proved me wrong, showed me care, i never could felt happier so far in life . I don't ask to be rich, i only ask for what is enough . I don't ask for perfect, i only ask for a little higher than average . I don't ask for your every freedom to be with me, i only ask for your trust enough to tie us together . Merely five months, i felt as if we've been together for five years . Have we met before ? Do we once knew each other ? You felt so different versus other males . I'm glad i knew you . =)

It's gonna be MST tomorrow, this entire week . Have you studied, my friends ? To be frank, i have not . And the time already tells 9.08pm . 有心无力 . Clubbing serves as my motivation no more, nothing is . Sometimes it keeps me wondering, why not everyone slow down their pace and we as a whole could be a little less stressful . Is it because of the career minded workers that sets the economic level high for us to be stressed up ? Or is it because of the greed of money that keeps the workers working more ? The sayings taught me happy times wouldn't last, i knew it, but only find myself to taste it at this age . Have you ever felt care free ? Real care free till what's troubling you is only minor issues to solve in less than a minute . I have . It keeps me wanting, but i find it hard to come across such times, honestly saying, i have no idea i'm care free until it's over for me to think back and realized . 

Shirley girlfriend seems to be in a similar situation, motivation-less . I've already have to repeat three modules, i'll just have to pull my socks higher or be a ship that sunks . May we all pass our tests, though with no flying colours, to the least, enough to get the diploma certificate . I know how she feels somehow, i was similar six months ago, only worse that resulted me to fail my studies . 

Be the one that says the glass is half full, not half empty . 

Today is the 24th November 2008 . Monday blues ... bla bla bla . I must say this week is a pretty busy week . Ducktours assessment falls on this weekend and so does dear dear's cousin's wedding . So dear dear's making a trip down to JB for car polishing, and i'm following along . =) . 

Speaking of the wedding, i'm still thinking of how to dress up for the day . It just so happens that the ducktours assessment falls on the same day as the wedding . So whatever i'm wearing to the wedding i'm wearing it to my second interview . Dress ? Office formal ? I have a white tie to go with most of the color shirts . Dear dear wants me to wear a dress ... hmm . 

Dear dear took leave for this Wednesday to Friday, we didn't went clubbing last Saturday because i don't feel like . Should i go this Wednesday ? Because dear dear said we could go this Wednesday because he's off work the next day . Haiz, maybe i shouldn't go . 

Next week's MST week already ... i really hope i could cope with every module this semester . 可是我有心无力。=/

Er jie seems to be in a fight with Wei Hao . Got her things back from his house i heard, and went out till late with another guy on last Friday night . Whatever the case is, if you need a listening ear, or a crying shoulder, someone to walk with you in the night, even if i could be of no help at all . I would be there if you need, okay ? All the best in your love life, no matter if it's a 25years old or a 40years old boyfriend, your decision, i respect whoever you choose . 

Wentta Full Throttle yesterday . . . nothing much, only some car accessories stalls . . decal stalls . . a few mod up drives and new cars for sale . COE is still stuck at $2 for category A . Haha . Then we went to watch some drifting and it started drizzling so we went off . I could see more better drifting some where else . 

Hmm . . . blog again soon . Au voir . 

Today is the 21st November . I'm home early on a Friday night . Bla . 

Was surfing the net and browsing some used car on sale and i saw a car i like . In fact, it's the car i'm always looking at, just a little different . If i have the money, i'll sure buy it with careful checks . 

Check this out . Nissan Fairlady 350Z 3.5L V6 engine . 

Features :

> Mipa matt black paint

> Ings carbon bonnet and bodykits

> Veilside spoiler

> HKS cat back exhaust ( titanium tips )

> Brembo 6/4 pot brakes ( 380 rotors )

Accessories :

> 19" Volks racing GTV rims

> Bride seats

> Fujitsubo Exhaust Extractor/Cat Pipe/Y Pipe

> Plasma injection

> Trust oil cooler

Road tax : $3,164 per year

COE : $9,801

Depreciation : $10,666

Bride seats . . . brembo brakes and matt paints . That's more of what i wanted if i have my own 350Z . Except i'll change the tyres to Bridgestone's and Nismo light weigh rims . More things then . Hmm . Just a beauty . vroom VROOM . =)

Bored bored, i'm very very bored at home . Especially when i come to think that it's Friday today . 

Hmm . New record came in today, i got a friend that got his license in 1.5 months . Genius and a very good driver i heard . Anyone wanna break that record ? Haha . I want my license ! And cho dear dear is already talking about our next holiday already . Argh . =(

Hmm . Think i'll go finish up tutorials so that i've more time for MST revisions . No choice, i've to use force to make myself study . T_T . 

Clubbing tomorrow ? 60% yes . =)

Bonjour . Today is the 20th November 2008 . FACC test today and yeah, i did studied, and i did practise . But somehow, luck just won't side you sometimes . Well well, all i can ever say again is, i did what i'm supposed to do . When one's up, the other is down, but i did well for audit . Scored 84% . Didn't manage to pull my mood up thinking about that either . Whatever . 

Dear dear went for Class 4 driving test yesterday and he passed . Yeah, does that mean next time when we date i could be in a lorry ? Haha . Good luck for your Class 5 again dear dear . *Kiss kiss* 

Saved up $20 but i spent more than half of all today . Gave my money to Microsoft Office 07 . Bought it at student price, so whatever i saved is spent . Well well, when you're not working, one cents count . I'm so broke and i wonder when can i ever get my license . Thinking about it, there's a new fairlady in my school that makes me wanna get my license even more . 

So many things going on, i feel like giving up everything, only be by your side . Sitting on a sofa, i lay in your arms, think about nothing, together we enjoy the comfort of our very own home . How good could that be ? 

 - 

Stop dreaming . Haha . Staying over at dear dear's place tonight, gonna meet him now . Blog again soon . Au voir . 

Today is the 18th November 2008 . Went to school today, wasn't supposed to take cough syrup because it causes drowsiness but i still took it . Don't wanna cough my lungs away at any time . Yeah, i didn't, but i was half aslept away through cost lecture . Bad . Anyway, didn't finished tax tutorial today because i was sick for too many days, i went to look for the tutor and told him what happened . He said to focus on the thursday test before anything else . Well, not as bad as i expected . 

Okay, what happened to me actually . Last Sunday i had a minor sore throat, so i thought nothing's gonna happened and took two lozenges before i went to bed . Woke up in the middle of the night i felt so cold i used up two blankets . Next morning i knew, i had fever . Took my temperature and it measured 38.8 degrees . Rest, slept, and ate nothing till 7pm at night, i had my first meal of the day - fish porridge . Had half of it, went to rest then dear dear wanna bring me to doctor . Almost fainted at my door, vision's black . I knew what happened - i don't have as much blood . Anyway, went to doctor, bla bla bla, MC till Wednesday but i went to school on Wednesday because i've got GEMS CA . Everything went fine until Friday . I've finished my course of medication and fever came back . So went to doctor again on Sunday . Low blood pressure and something else . Suspect i've got dengue fever . MC on Monday again because of drowsy drugs . I missed so many lessons, i can barely catch up . I don't understand lectures anymore . 

MST is coming up . . . i hope i can keep it on . Wish me luck . 

10th December 2008 . . . =D

Now i can finally say . . . 我喜欢你 . . . 好喜欢好喜欢 . . . Dear dear ♥ . 

Today is the 15th November 2008 . Well, TGIF ? Okay, not exactly though, if weekends are too boring with nothing to do then i suppose i'd prefer weekdays . Those days, even when you've got tonnes of work to do and hell lots of revisions to go through, friends are always there to be with you, sharing the heavy load together . I miss those days when i was still in year 1, when Cheryl was still around . We study together, we eat together, we walk together, even if we have to stay back to late 8pm or so to finish up projects, we're willing to . We don't force ourselves to stay, neither do we wish to go back home early, because group unity is what we have ? The strong bond is now gone . At least to me, i found it so .  

Anyway, happy times are not meant to last . 

I find it strange . I've finished the whole course of medication already and the sore throat came back . Together with a little bit of fever . Darn it . What did i do ? I thought all germs are killed already . But thank god Mom and Dad came back, else i'll have to consult a doctor again i guess . Mom's already half a doctor working at a clinic for more than 10 years . Right now, i've to take Anti-Biotics for another 5 days . Guess i'll just have to comply to make myself feel better . 

And i found a good news, or rather two good news . I went to Ducktours interview last Wednesday and i got chosen outta the many . =) . I guess only 3 were chosen outta 8 or 9 . And we've got a second interview coming up . It's a rather good job i guess, weekdays $8/hour and weekends $10/hours EXCLUSIVE of tips . Just imagine . I'll work hard for the second interview and i shall be able to buy the things i need . To my surprise, i'm in need of certain things : - 

> BBDC - My Class 3 license

> The Make Up Store - Sport Foundation Latte Color

> Sony Ericcson C905

> Wax my back @ Ministry of Wax 

> Change my hairstyle 

> 350Z 1:10 detailed car model @ Millenia Walk

> DECADE stationeries from POPULAR BOOKSTORE

Talking about changing my hairstyle, i thought i just wanna try something exotic but Mom's totally disagree . For those who've seen me lately, you'd have known how my hair looks like . I just wanna dye my fringe white or cut off my long hair, leaving behind a long long tail . How does that sounds ? Fun eh . =))) . Give me comments . 

Dear dear finally graduated from 3 weeks 160th Platoon Sergeant Course yesterday . I'm glad to hear that . =) . Went to Class 4 theory lesson after his graduation and it ended early . So he came over to my place for dinner and stayed for the night because he has to return to his own camp this morning . . . and RT tomorrow morning . =/ . Going to work 7 days a week, i feel unfair for you too, my dear . But for the bowl of rice, we shall not complain too much . 

Sigh . I know i shouldn't be complaining, but why is life so complicated ? When will my life of a bed of roses come true . Guess it will never .